Jamie's point of view

As Shawna Sean and I got to the emergency room It was very crowded as at this point its about Its about 9:00 pm, and Holly Cross is a very busy city hospital. I first check us in at the front desk and they take Shawna's stats, like name weight and as she steps on the scale and they tell her it says 190lbs, she did not believe them and she thinks she weighs 290lbs. Sh was getting very mad when they would not listen to her. They proceed to ask more questions to which 9 out of 10 she gets wrong. They quickly realize its her brain having issues and rush her back for a cat scan. So Sean and I wait about an hour And when the doctor comes out they tell us that they are admitting her. And that she now needs a MRI but that she won't let anyone help her into a hospital gown except me,Ha ha my modest sister. So after I help her into her gown she has gotten he MRI The doctor comes in and tells me and Sean That Shawna has bleeding on the brain AKA Brain aneurysm I hear this, I know I does not sound good but I have no idea what this means But then I look over to Sean who is a doctor and his face says it all I know this is very bad. As the doctor leaves the room Sean tells me I should call my mom in Utah And have her fly to Maryland ASAP. ! So now my mom is on her way. Shawna is checked into her ICU room, Its about 1am . And the doctor comes in and tells me she has to go back to immediate emergency surgery to remove part of her skull cap as her brain was expanding and swelling from the bleeding her brain needed room to grow, before it hit her skull which would kill her If this was not scary enough. The nurse said I had to sign a paper called a DNR, meaning I had to make a call on Shawna's fate If something went wrong during her brain surgery. Talk about a decision no sister should make. The only upside if there was one, was that Shawna was ob;oblivious To the serious danger she was in because the part of the brain the the bleed was on was causing her to have no fear or a sense of what was going on. So she was happy being her silly self. So 2 hours later she is rolled into her ICU room and half of her head is shaved and has a million staples closing the wound down the right side of her head. The doctor was able to stop the bleeding and he had stored skull flap portion of her head that was removed during surgery in her abdomen crazy ness.! So she is stable by now but by no means out of trouble, So I stay with her in the hospital over night Thankfully The next morning our mom was here! We both son needed her there!Written by My sisters point of view

Pioneer women

Well lets talk about this lovely picture, I feel like my life has been divided up  into events and moments let  me tell you about this photo  I feel like ever since my “d” day , my explosion, my bloody bleeding brain. My life has very much been divided up into events and moments. The actual brain pain moment was a pretty big event. Then well I survived, that was another big event. I was cleared to fly back home to utah, another big event. Then I was finally ready and able to start therapy which has been chalk full of events and moments. A great moment was learning how to tie my shoe again. That only took two years! Baking on my own was a huge moment for me. It might sound cheesy or odd but a really big moment for me was meeting the pioneer woman, she has been a fun emotional part of my healing process. For reasons I cannot really explain my brain just really attached on this wonderful red headed sassy classy woman. So when I was able to meet her in salt lake city it was an amazing emotional moment. I was waiting in a tiny crowed bookstore. Before I could even see her I could hear her and had to fight back the tears. It was a quick meet and greet where she signed her cookbook for me and wrote be well in it. I strive to be well every day. I’ve met the one person I’ve always wanted to meet! Who’s your person?

New Firsts

My next few blog posts are about well everything I’m re –learning I feel that I have had 2 starts  or beginnings in my life  my birth thank heavens I don’t remember that experience and after my head explosion ( brain aneurism ) So I’m just sharing some of my  new first no matter how small they may seem they are all big and exciting to me.