Ouch that hurt

  “Life has knocked me down a Few times. It has shown me things I never wanted to see I have experienced sadness and failures. But one thing is for sure I always get back up!”(Unknown) There have been some funny times during my whole brain explosion thing wel,l seance they are in in the past I can say they are funny. But at the time some where painful, annoying, slightly humiliating, and OK funny. OK lets start with this My right arm AKA my strok ey arm AKA my Nemo arm likes to hold on for dear life and never lets go So picture this I'm walking in a crowd of people and I bump into someone or maybe are hands just accidentally brush. Now that's not odd or unheard of but what is odd is that my hand will grab on. Know we can have that slightly embarrassing moment I was talking about up there. Luckily it usually happens with family. And no I have not found a long term or lasting relationship this way, fingers crossed. .But there was this time that my hand did not let go of the roll of toilet paper when I left the bathroom I did not notice. Tell my little sister Sierra asked me Um mm Shawna what are you doing I have no idea. I just take the paper back and drop it like its hot. My arm can also do some pretty weird and unusual hugs and sometimes painful for the other person. Its true Sierra always cringes and fears my hugs, OK maybe only half the time. Hey my arm causes me pain as Well. Have any of you ever stubbed your finger ouch right?! Well I happen to stub my whole arm Its not a fun experience its highly unpleasant. Now let me talk about running into things it happens. All the time I lost my peripheral vision on my left side so now I have little bruises every where door ways are the bane of my existences I don't like chairs, shoes on the floor, cupboards, counter tops I had a bad experience bending over an d not noticing one and now there is a bruise on my cheek. . Like I said some of these are funny and some not so much. I I'm still working on all this a little by little there are slight improvements.

 This was my life for long while always wearing a helmet

Independence

I want to tell y'all about a great fantastic day I had recently I had a hair appointment at the local beauty school, well to get beautified. But there was no car not that I dive anyway and no one was home to take me. So I set my alarm the night before to wake up with plenty of time to get ready and walk myself to the salon, bonus for me for leaving on time. Seeing that I live in a small town nothing is really that far and your bound to run into some you know, which I did about half way there She pulled over and asked if I wanted a ride and I said sure. Will call it a small town taxi service and end up at the salon super early better to be early the late, Right? After I decided I might as well so to the grocery store to pick up a few things sense I was out already I always carry my trusty reusable bag in my purse So i'm set. Let me tell you something If you want to save money at the grocery store walk there because you know you are going to half to Flintstone everything back with you after the store I stpped by local gym to check out the prices. Then I was on my way home. I should tell you that I tend to walk a little on the slow side I just watch every step I take. So to keep going the same speed I walked to the beat of sugar pie honey bun in my head of coarse which is not that weird If you know me at all in my brain there is an endless play list playing all the time Its fun and amusing at times. For the longest time after my surgery's I had One of two songs in my head. You could tell by the way I was bopping my head which one it was, Ocean front property in Arizona and you ain't nothing but a hoochie mama. Now I have no idea why my brain chose to keep these two songs in the forefront of my head but it did so I just roll with it. I felt such a seance of independence this day that I have not felt sense my head exploded. I got up on my own and on time walked where I needed to be it was only about 2 miles but worth of walking but it was through multiple intersections and I never go lost confused of hurt for that matter. Now this may seem like small fry's to most people and it would be but for me who has been in therapy for the last 2 years to help so I could do exactly what I just did is Huge deal. And I' m not in therapy any more so Woohoo the last  2yars have worked and stuck with me. 

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This is how I roll  when i'm on my own